24 years bold

Happy birthday to me... So I am officially old but I'm dating someone younger to compensate for that... Friday Lindsay and I went to Yamato and gorged ourselves on $62 of sushi...yeah it was a herculean amount but we managed to devour all of it. We ended up seeing Jack and Nicole Friday night. It was actually a little bizarre at first because they both proceeded to ignore both of us for a while to play games on Jacks library ipad. Saturday after work Evan came over and gave me some obscene presents. A my chemical romance stationary set, a sophisticated panda tshirt and last but certainly not least....AN AUTOGRAPHED FIRST EDITION OF "THE VALUE OF X" BY POPPY Z. BRITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...I'm so utterly in awe of this gift I don't even know what to say. It's perfect, truly and utterly perfect. That book means so much to me for so many reasons (some good some bad) that the gesture of him giving it to me cannot be expressed in words. This is something I want to be buried with and that I will selfishly hold onto and care for above all my other possessions. Oh and I also got a bike from my parents in addition to the Elton John tickets(ps: he was amazing!) Sunday night I went to the Glassjaw show with Brian and......yeah. Glassjaw was awesome and I got to hangout with Caitlin and Emily whilst simultaneously running into Palace but there was a glitch. Sam was there with his friends and proceeded to ignore me with a vengeance the entire night. I'm not really upset by it but I thought that at this point we could maybe be cordial and friendly. I shouldn't be surprised I don't know how I would handle the situation had I been in his shoes and I'm probably expecting to much. It's not like I can just run up and say "Hi, I'm better now please be my friend!". I just don't know how I feel about never seeing him ever again. It's a harsh reality that I'm sure I'll eventually have to face but right now I'm still on a high from my birthday and my impending graduation. Maybe seeing Suckerpunch with Evan tonight, sometimes I feel that if he didn't hold me tight I would just drift out into space. I feel so disassociated and desensitized so much of the time that he sometimes seems like my only link to humanity.