you could do better

Whenever I think I have you figured out you surprise me

blunt blowin

I'm sitting in my room putting off a paper that I'm 1/3 of the way done. I'm so fucking tired of school I just want to get through the next year and be completely done with it. My dad is being an asshole. I'm seriously too old for this. Had I known then what I know now I would've never had my little "accident". I'm just ready to move on to bigger and better things. Saw Evan's play on Saturday. It was actually pretty good and he wasn't bad either. I went with Nicole from work and her friend Alicia and we had a good time. I have so much work to do this break : (. Hopefully hanging out with Sam at some point. I need to find my Jesus myspace shirt so I can wear it. That is all for now.

super happy fun time!

Blerg, I hate nights like this. I have to be at work at 4am so I'm just staying in tonight. I've been through my closet and got all the clothes I no longer want, bagged them up, and dropped them off in one of those goodwill dumpsters. Now I'm just sitting in my room lamenting...le sigh.

nothing get's between me and my calvin's

So I broke one of my cardinal rules today. I did something that I thought I would never, ever do...that's right I bought a pair of levi's. I've long held a very firm rule that I would never wear levi's jeans. For years I've been cramming my fat ass into designer jeans and just assuming I was supposed to muffin top like that. Well no longer! I went to Towson Town Center and bought a pair of tapered levi's 520's. They fit great, look good and were $60 which is everything I want in a pair of jeans. Huzzah!

MX4

Just got home. I have a paper to do but it's gonna be a little late, oh well. I got an A on the last one so I'm not too worried. Hungout with Sam tonight. We went for a walk and saw a movie at the Charles. I think he had a really good time. Side note: I'm watching the RHOBH and Camille just laid some truth down on Taylor about Russell. Anyways, we had a nice time. I'm glad we've been hanging out regularly I always have fun. I kind of acted like a goober at the end of the night. I'm sure it's cool though blerg. Going to see a play on Saturday. That's all for now.

birthday cake

had a really good night...really fucking good.

I would like to think of myself as the biggest extravaganza of them all

Kim Kardashian

oh5

Haven't listened to this song in years, still destroys me

All dressed up with nowhere to go

Do I come off as really desperate? I feel like I do a lot of the time and I don't mean to. I just hate playing games and being vague, I like honesty. I'd like to apologize to my captivated audience, I know I haven't updated in a while...oh wait not a single person reads this so it doesn't really matter. So I hung out with Sam last week. It went really well I think. We just sat at Starbucks and talked for a couple of hours. It's weird because it's almost like no time had passed at all since I'd last seen him. There were no awkward pauses. I forgot how much I just genuinely enjoy his company. I'm trying to hangout again but I feel like I'm sending the wrong message. Half the time I feel like I'm just bothering him but I know he had a good time too, I could feel it. The whole time we sat across from each other I could feel an electrical current. I actually had take a breath before I could drive off. Might see him tonight. Might not. Within the past week Evan and I have been up and down and up and down again and again. I'm just tired of it. I think right now that we're in a good, stable place and I hope it stays that way. I wish I could just read minds, I wouldn't talk so fucking much. I'd say for ever text I get from Sam I send him like 5 back. I know I sound like a crazy person half the time but I don't mean too. I'm probably just going to be by myself tonight as per usual. It's actually not that bad but I was hoping that I'd get to see him this weekend and chill some more. Am I expecting too much of this frail, fragile, fledgling, friendship (alliteration much?)? Probably but I don't know how else to be. I'm really just being myself. I think he's expecting me to drop the ball at some point but it's not going to happen obvi. Just keep moving forward like a motherfucking great white shark.