fucked in the head

I know I shouldn't and I know that there's no way it could ever happen but...I can dream can't I? I don't think I'm being too disingenuous but I guess I am. Sometimes life is just so fucking confusing. Obviously this doesn't make any sense at all but as no one reads this blog I don't really think it matters. I could probably spill all of my secrets here and no one would ever know... I don't even want to use pronouns here. What's a boy to do?